You can do it

When someone tells you you can't do something, show them you can. When people don't believe in you, show them how great you are. When someone says you won't make a team list, and you do, be proud of yourself.

This brings me to say, that there is nothing more powerful than the power of the self. As corny as it sounds, when you believe in yourself, work hard, and have an open and accepting mind, there is nothing you cannot accomplish.

Nobody knows you, and what you're capable of. Never let anyone's words get in the way of what you can accomplish. Keep your eyes on the prize, and do not get distracted by nonsense.

Congratulations to Melissa Douglas, Krysta Brownell, Shana Simon, Monique Johnson, Myself, Justin Trevail, and especially Kate Boutillier for being such a rock star and only keep her eyes on whats important and not giving up.




You deserve it more than anyone baby, my little underdog <3

Opposing the past

First off, I want to say, to each their own. I don't want to be ethnocentric in any way (meaning I compare everyone's lifestyles and beliefs to my own, my own being superior). I realize different things make different people happy, but there are some things I can't understand.

Why are people I went to high school with, having babies, getting married, and building houses ?

This is 2000 flippin' 10. We have an unlimited supply of choices in life's great pursuit. The world is only becoming more accessible everyday, yet people who are barely 22 are settling down.

Making any kind of commitment of that nature would just be a nightmare for me. I feel so young, and so alive and there are 10 million things I want to do before I start worrying about birthday parties and scrabble night. I realize people fall in love, yes, but why the rush to be locked up in legal and financial vows ?? To me it just seems like giving up on so many things in life.

Maybe people are following religious or cultural traditions, I don't know. But to the people I went to high school with, our home town is but a sliver, a miniscule ant of what's out there. I'm sick of hearing, "Oh I'd love to move away, and I'd love to get involved in this, I'd love to do that.... but I could never, I'd be too scared!" Scared ? Really ? Do you really want to be old and gray wishing you spent a little more time on yourself in your 20's ?

Trust me, I'm not hating on ANYONE'S lifestyle choice, I just feel most people could really get a lot more out of life if they wanted to. I'm not saying marriage and all those things aren't amazing. But there is SO much time to build a nice house, have beautiful children, and go on family vacations, why miss out on the best years of your life ?? Are your crazy high school parties going to be the only thing you'll be able to talk about when you're older ?

To all the beautiful, young, liberal people out there pursuing their dreams and reading this blog, Rock the fuck on. People say life is short, life is not fucking short, it is long as hell. It's time to DO YOU, chase your dreams and settle down when the time is right.

Thoughts ?

But.... I'm not looking

Do you know what annoys me ? When I am newly single and someone consolodates me with, "Don't worry, you'll find somone"

I always reply with, "Actually, I'm not looking, but thanks!"

I don't see why it comes as such a shock that I don't mind, and even enjoy, being single. Cute couples don't bother me, and I don't feel lonely having a night to myself in my apartment with me, myself, and I. Because those are some of my favorite people !

I'm not saying I want to be alone for my entire life, and that I'm opposed to love. I do however not believe in looking. Looking only leads to dissapointment. Who is anyone to judge someone, or have a "criteria" of what they want. Love is far too complex to ever write what you're looking for on paper <3

Like they say, nobody will truly love you until you love yourself. If you are single, and you constantly dream about a ficticious boyfriend/girlfriend; you should rethink things. Unhealthy relationships develop out of neediness, and I can guarantee you that no man or woman will EVER make you feel as content or happy as you can make yourself :)

Do I picture myself ever in love in the future ? Yes. It will happen when the time is right, but until then I'm not going to force anything. Because making friends is a choice, but falling in love is out of my control.

<3 Thanks for reading !

I don't like being tall

I very much dislike being tall, and I'm only 6'1 ! So there are a LOT of people who are much taller than me, and I pity them ever so more. But relative to most people, I am very tall and as much as you would think all tall people love being tall, I hate it.

When you're a male and you're tall it's considered attractive, but I would find myself much more attractive if I was 5'7 or below. My reasons why being tall sucks...

1. As a hip hop dancer, you look and feel ackward. It's hard to sell your shit when you tower over everyone else in the group, when you're so tall smaller clothes make you look like a rake and baggy clothes make you look foolish. It is very hard to get a job as a hip hop dancer if you're tall, because choreographers dislike one person standing out, and do not want anyone's height towering over the main act (aka the singer). Yes, they look tall in music videos, but please note, that Shakira is 5'2 and Britney is 5'4, now go and look at all the males standing next to them.

2. Doing ANYTHING that requires a lot of upper body strength is harder for tall people. Break dancing, tumbling, anything that requires you to lift yourself up with just your arms is harder because you have much more weight to carry and much more body to move. And when you fall doing anything it hurts a hell of a lot more. Basically, you have to compensate for much more upper body strength than someone who is a lot shorter. And what really sucks is when all your height is in your legs. (My dad is taller than me when we sit down, he is 5'7)

3. You hit your head on shit. Yeah, you would think people who are 6'1 don't hit their heads on ceilings, pipes, the tops of doors because 6'1 is a common height among males. You are wrong. Especially in foreign countries where the population tends to be a lot shorter. Whilst in El Salvador I had a mild concussion walking into a public bathroom.

I mean... this is not to say that there are no perks to being tall, and I'm probably just oblivious to them because I don't know what it's like to not be tall. Because of the activities I do, I would much rather be average height to shorter... Anyone else have similar feelings ??

What's Most Important ?

What's more important ? Your own success or someone else's failure ?

If you were on Team A, and Team B was consistently beating you at whatever sport or activity, what do you think you would do about it ?

Would you spend your time trash talking Team B, or would you focus on yourself and how you can better your team. The answer seems quite obvious, but I have many times seen quite the opposite.

You know how I feel about haters... I talk about them all the time. If you find yourself talking smack about someone else or Team B consistently, take a step back and figure out why you're doing it, and how it's only embarassing you. Because the truth is, Team B isn't affected by your words, and they in fact may only boost their egos.

My biggest problem I've EVER had with people, and my biggest pet peeve is when people do a lot of "talking" and little "doing."

I usually find that these people are also really afraid of the truth and are buddy-buddy with denial. Because the truth is mean, but it is not your enemy, it will only help you and denial will only set you back.

Wow... a lot of my posts have not had much "flow" lately... probably because there's a lot of buzz going on in my mind and there's so much going on up there lately I haven't been able to effectively get it out.

<3

I still get nervous

I gave two presentations in school yesterday and I was wicked nervous before and while I was speaking. I had so much confidence in myself before the day of the presentations because I'm not a shy person. Especially when it comes it comes to talking to strangers or performing in front of someone. I think that's when you see the real me, when I'm on stage because I'm showing you who I really am, it's natural to me.

But when it comes to reading off paper about something I'm not passionate about, I just can't bring myself to sell it and not be nervous. It's almost like I don't believe in what I'm saying and I'm not confident about it so I absolutely cannot fake it. I just don't have it in me to be fake I think, even if it benefits me, that's why I could never be in sales. I have no problem talking to people, but if you want me to sell something that I'm not sure if they even need or not, I cannot and will not do it.

I'm a marketing student and I've pretty much been studying sales for 4 years, but I don't know if I'm capable. I've been looking at jobs online a lot lately, and I found one that payed well, but you had to sell kitchen ware. I'm sorry, but I'd rather live on the streets than sell kitchen ware. I'd be much better off at a desk job I think. I don't know how people live their entire lives banking on selling something... I commend those people, because personally I'd be too afraid of rejection ! haha

wow, I really didn't know the direction of this blog post at all.... oh well ! (I'm high on energy drinks from studying so much)

Stress.

I dislike it..... but then again, who doesn't. I'm the type of person who doesn't experience stress overly often because I've found ways to deal with things that bother me, and that involves being very blunt, and doing a bit of complaining. I make my happiness and well-being an utmost priority in life.

I'm very proactive when it comes to my life, and I don't wait until I can't handle things to fix them, I try to fix them ahead of time before they become a problem.

But no matter how hard you try, some things you just can't avoid or fix. And I have to admit that I'm very stressed right now, and there are a lot of things bothering me that I just can't seem to figure out how to fix them. It reminds me of how shitty of a feeling it is, and how many people experience it all day every day. It's so uncomfortable, I feel constantly on edge, I don't know if I want a big hug from someone or if I want to blast music and scream into a pillow. I feel like my heart and chest is racing 24/7.

I know what's got me stressed out, but I've considered every single scenario and there's no way out of any of them right now, they are beyond my control. I'm having a hard time dealing with it, I don't know what do ! :(

I exercise a lot, I generally eat well, and I express my feelings but I still don't know how to make myself feel better right now. It's only been the past few days, but does anyone have any suggestion of how to deal with extreme stress? I just want to relax...

Wisdom Teeth + Laughing Gas

So after constant jaw pain and a really bad cavity, I decide to go see the dentist on Tuesday, he tells me that I should have seen a dentist earlier and that I need a root canal and my wisdom teeth need to come out ASAP. He cancelled some of his appointments on Thursday to fit me in and I had the whole process done yesterday. Yes, this is a picture of the monstrosities that came out of my mouth ( I think I'm about 5 pounds lighter )

So all in all the process wasn't that bad, I was high as a kite on laughing gas (which was a lot of fun) I just remember feeling really relaxed and really good, I could hear the grinding and crunching in my mouth, and I remember tasting blood, but with the laughing gas and the adivan (prescription anti-anxiety medication) I still felt great. I remember looking at the dentist and saying, "This isn't that bad... it's actually kinda fun!" But without the gas my parents in Newfoundland would have probably heard me screaming.

I'm not ashamed to say this, but I think the laughing gas relaxed me a little too much, because when I got home and fell asleep, I wet the bed.... I remember dreaming I was peeing and then waking up and being like... "fuck......." And for the record, I've NEVER been a bed wetter.

So the moral of this post is...Don't be afraid of getting your wisdom teeth out (if you're awake for it) the gas has such a happy effect on you that you actually think someone ripping teeth out of your mouth is fun.

I'm all stitched up inside my mouth now, but I'm not too swollen ! Just eating is a little difficult !

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Nicki Minaj feat. Sean Garrett - Massive Attack

Expo Results !

First off, I want to say that it was an amazing weekend, and all the teams that competed did so well, and congratulations to all the division champ teams ! Full results and scores can be found at www.cheerexpo.com

My dance team was lucky enough to place first in Dance making us National Champs :) It was a close battle with Dance Acadia who put up a good fight !

My cheerleading team Heat came in 4th place in our division ! Day 2 we did great tho and all our pyramids and stunts stuck ! :) Congrats to the Manitoba Bisons on winning !

So my dance team will be taking the bid and going to COMPETE AT DANCE WORLDS IN FLORIDA !!! Can you believe it ?? I can't !!! hahahah. Me? In a world's competition? wow.... needless to say I had a great weekend ! To all my fellow dance team members and our captain, I LOVE you so much and I can't wait for our dance world's experience :)

All this travel is pricey for us tho.. haha our school is going to cover some of it, but going all the way to Florida is not cheap ! And like my captain said, we are desperate for money so none of us are above begging... or prostitution. Although I don't think my boyfriend would approve of the latter :P

If anyone knows any companies willing to sponsor a team like us as we represent Canada please let me know !!!

<3 <3

Haters - keep talkin' !

Yeah, that's right; haters - keep talkin.

Haters always gonna be talkin about you (yeah the ghetto voice is necessary for this). That's all haters are good for, is talkin'. Haters need to stop talkin', and maybe start "doin'" something.

The more confident you are, and the more things you do - the more haters gonna be on your ass ! Cuz they can't handle it, they have to convince themselves and others around them of how sure they are of you. Well the only thing they can be really sure about, is that a part of them is shocked at your behaviour, and maybe even a little bit jealous !

When I catch a hater sayin shit, cuz it happens often (ex. facebook statuses... yes, I saw it ! ;) ) my initial reaction is to be angry, or upset. But I've conditioned myself to take it as a compliment. Like soverign says "love me or hate me it's still an..." yeah, you know the rest.

So what I have to say is, next time a hating ass bitch got you down, just sing to yourself "1, 2, 4, 3 none of these..." you know the rest of that one too ;)

If you doin' what you doin' and not carin' what other people think about you, YOU ROCK !!!!

Haters keep talking ! Feed our egos and do what you do best ! :)

and once again, sorry for the ghetto typing, it comes out when I'm really passionate ;)

Cheer Expo !!!

Cheer Expo is coming up this weekend !! For those of you who don't know that is, it is the biggest Cheerleading and Dance competition of the entire year. There will be teams from as far away as Manitoba coming to compete.

For everyone who isn't very familiar with cheerleading; don't expect to see what you see at a football game. This is competitive cheerleading, with many all star teams. This means that people come to cheer the teams on, the cheerleaders actually don't cheer for other athletes because they are superb athletes themselves.

It is a very athletic sport; replace the pom pom's for back tuck baskets, double twists from liberty, and tumbling full twisting layouts.

It really is a show, you will also see kids up to your knees doing things you never even dreamed of doing.

Lucky for me, I'm competing in both divisions, both Cheer and Dance ! I'm with Dartmouth based DCF HEAT Open Level 6, and Saints Marys University Dance Team; Open Dance division. And if my dance team wins at this competition we are going to DANCE WORLDS in Florida, so we'd really love your support !!!!!

Please come and enjoy yourselves, most people I have been talking to said they didn't even know real cheerleading existed in Halifax. Come this weekend and you'll see Bring it On in person !

Where and When: This weekend ! March 26th and 27th, Halifax Forum (2901 Windsor Street). Schedule of team performances at http://www.cheerexpo.com/

MUSIC PIC

MONICA - BLACKBERRY

What about the Music ?

Is it just me or has pop and urban music been lacking lately? And have musicians been focusing too much on other things other than music ?

I remember in my second year of university I was literally buying a new CD every week, every tuesday when CD's came out there was something I wanted to buy, but now I feel like everything I hear I dislike. I don't know if my taste's are changing but music just seems to be dead lately, maybe due to economy .... ? lol

And not only that, it seems there's too much focus on things that aren't even music related. For example, MTV taking the "music television" out of it's logo because it definitely is not about music anymore.

And I know I've been player hating on Lady Gaga a lot, but I just have to make a reference to her because I feel like what I'm saying especially deals with her. Don't get me wrong, I love the girl, but do you think she'd be half of what she is if it wasn't for her theatrics and "statements" ? I know the girl can write music, and I know her music is decent, but in all honesty, haven't we heard it before? What is she offering us music wise ?

And what about the telephone music video ? I signed up for a song not a failed attempt at kill bill 3

I feel like a lot of music tastes now are just based on fads and fashion... and that makes me sad :(

I'm not going to jump on the Lady Gaga train, I love what she stands for, but her music is no better than anyone else's and coming from a dancer, gaga can't dance.
*Sorry Gaga lovers !! love you all HUGSSS

Does anyone know what I mean tho? Have you been dying to hear that song at the club that just hits you in the right spots? But feeling like it just doesn't exist right now... ?

That being said, here's a decent jam, nothing spectacular, but it's fun ! Don't mind the douche in the music video

RICKY J - WHATTA NIGHT

I don't like wasting time

I don't know about everyone else, but when it comes to any form of entertainment, or any form of research, or anything in life for that matter, I like it to be FAST.

I'm the type to watch a movie as opposed to read the book, why? Because I can watch probably more than 10 movies and get 10 stories in the time that it takes me to read one book. It's not because I'm lazy, and I don't feel it makes me unintelligent, I just think it's a more effective use of time. I know book's probably have more content, but honestly, I'm not really concerned with the finer details anyway.

And research in school, I don't like this old way of thinking "For this paper you must only use books and scholarly journals." Ok.. so I have to spend hours digging through a library, just to find the book. Then I have to waste time reading this book to find if it's relevant to my topic, oh look at that ! It has nothing to do with what I'm looking for, there goes my entire day at the library....

Professors... Why can't we use google and Internet resources? You'd think since life is becoming more convenient and advanced that our methods of research should be too? I can type exactly why I'm looking for in Google and get 1000 hits. Bam, paper done in 4 hours.

I'm a type of thinker that time is money. I don't mind working hard, I love working hard, that is evident through all the things I do. But I do dislike wasting time that could be better spent on other things. Anyone agree with my line of thinking or have any arguments?

Who wants to waste their time reading hundreds of pages when you can have all the relevant information in a few clicks?

Things Everyone Should Know.

Since we, young people, are going to decide the future of this planet, there are a few things that we seem to forget about that we should keep in mind....

40% of the world's population accounts for 5% of global income (The richest 20% of the world's population accounts for 3/4 of global income.)

--> What does this mean? This means that there is a small handful of painfully rich people and those who are not in this handful are mostly living in poverty. (You are in the handful)

2.6 billion people do not have access to sanitary water. (Think about how many people live on the planet). Most of these spend hours a day just trying to obtain it.

Number of children in the world: 2.2 billion
Number of children in poverty: 1 billion

Global military spending: 780 Billion US dollars
Global education spending: 6 Billion US dollars

A billion people entered the 21st century unable to sign their names. In other words, about 1 in 7 people do not know how to spell their own names and have never been taught.


Something to think about.

When you thinks someone's a *bad word*

We've all thought, or heard someone say that someone else is stuck-up, or that they're a b-word. I want to speak in defence of these people.

When someone walks around with a lot of confidence, and is cool and collected, people are always quick to call them stuck up or unfriendly. I have come to learn that these people end up often being the sweetest and most sensitive people.

Correct me if I'm wrong but I think I know why. I think a lot of these people are really just afraid of getting hurt so they don't go throwing themselves around at everyone, they want to feel everyone out first, see what their intentions are before they open up.

I can say I've met a lot of these people that are very quiet and don't have much to say at first, but I find when you get to know them, ask them a few questions about themselves they end up being very sweet.

I'm not really sure, but I know I definitely could be one of these people. Because I know I'm very stand-offish and quiet at first. I keep everything to small talk until I start to see what someone's personality is like, then I open up.

So I guess the moral of this post is, to not judge people too quick and call them bitches, or stuck up, because if you just give it time they usually end up being the sweetest people !

I'm sure you all can relate, EVERYONE has a best friend that they disliked at first ! :)

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USHER - SOMEBODY TO LOVE

Welcome !

Why... Hello there everyone.

To say it's been a while is an understatement. I hope all the people who enjoyed reading my blog will continue reading and not be discouraged by the fact that I haven't written since November 2009.

I can say, that I have done a lot of growing in that time period as a person, and I am ready to share the new me, and the new thoughts and ideas I have.

The blog will essentially be the same, however I plan to take a much more political approach. I feel a lot of the things I said were obnoxious and bold. I figure there are better ways to make a point then to act like Perez Hilton.

A lot of my old posts are deleted and gone, mostly because I don't feel like they reflect the person that I am now.

Anyways, just wanted to leave you all with a quick note, that new posts are to come, and that I will keep you posted on facebook !

*Hugs